Im not that kind of girl

Hello everyone, how are you? hows life?

Well i hope u guys are fine.

Woke up at 7 today when i heard my msg's tone and it was from him ♥

after 10 mins snuggled at my bed i went to the living room.

and playing with little bella, papa was having his bfast with mama.

humph, oh yeah last friday on 07/10/2011 my sis at last give birth to her first child.

aww, so cute! Its a baby boy. :)

i din get the chance to see the little one at hospital cos and i went to his house, and its for the very last time.

cos my spm's exam is in the corner, and its next month *sigh

pics: 

after i met with stef, hurriedly went to hospital yesterday, here little Evandre Flezo

at tuaran. was craving for kfc.

its donna and jester.

 ann kins.

rick and I.

Stef send me back at home yesterday. aww i miss him. and im soooooooooo gonna miss him. 

having my exam since last week, and will end next week.

got nothing to do today. Sunday supposed to be fun but im feel very boring here. Humph!

*end*

Okay shall I post something here? something that I've been keep for so long? Okay lets start.

Well i hope my baby stef wont get mad if he read this.

Cos i know i had told him bout this and i dont want he thinks that i still havent settle up with this matter.

But i just want people who's involved in this thingy to know how im feeling for all of  these times.

after those fight that i had with stef months ago, and i am still with him right now,

there's something went not right between his side's. 

I found out he had brought that girl to his house ahead than me. 

So literaly...oh wait, yeah of course when i knew about it, i burst out in mad! 

but i try to control my feelings about it, i dont want to get angry towards it, cos i know it had passed and it'll only get worst than it was.

okay where was i, okay...so yeah literally his family know this girl ahead from me. *chill esther.

oh yeah, this girl is niem niem arieniems, or should i mentioned her name rose shairynna ann.

no bad intention here. 

and i know his elder brother is always chit chatting and sms-ing with her, that close? k.

but what has not satisfied me here, is his cousin fera.

idk what had rose tell her(since they know each other earlier than me)

but i can see that fera dont like me, whereas i havent meet her, nor know her.

except, there are one time where I met her which is last saturday where i followed stef to his cousin's wedding. but that just one time. and its happen just last week. 

and i can see it in her face that she doesnt like me, when stef introduced me to her. where i got this huge PFFFT from her. okay thats normal in girls world, isnt it? but giving people a pffft at your first met are called RUDE, am i right? and it shows obviously you dont like that person.

c'mon girl, we are at the same age, we are 17, so we can think rational and more matured. right?

i can say, i dont like rose, I SO DONT LIKE HER, and i know her cousin Eiryn Auddrey Auddrey always view me and likes all of my new post, and they dont know that i know who they are.

and i know rose had add me via facebook not so long ago.

but yet i din remove or blocked 'em. umm, but rose had blocked me.

but,  i want to be close with them. eventho, i know what had they done to me.

so fera? what had not satisfied you towards me? 

if u wanna say that i had steal stef from rose, then you should ask them who's the one was with stef earlier.

stef had been acted stupid in march with her, and i was in january with him. 

Okay i know y'all must be blur when i suddenly write what month is stef with me and her.

right, it is bcos i saw fera's status via facebook, here: 

girl.. I dn't like u n ur stpid fwenz... U owedy got wat u want!! Tell ur fwen dn't disturb my brother!!!

its copied from your wall, and the date was the day we met. and that time i had brought my friends with me too. so yeah obviously you're talking bout me :)

cool, nvm that. im okay with it cos i gt standard, and thats cruel. :) be nice next time, could you? dont be such a childish. We have brain to think and a heart to feel. This what you're gonna do when u're in my shoes. :)

k, fera? i dont wanna fight, cos i live to find a peaceful life not to live to bear a grudge :)

i hope u'll be nice next time, cos i'll be nicer two times to you.

*end*

i want to dedicate this song to my baby stef. 

The lyrics are so deep. 

i miss you eventho we've met yesterday.

i miss your hugs, kissed and cuddles, i miss the way you hold me in you arms everytime before i went to sleep, and i miss talking to you honey :) im glad we can settle things nicely everytime we fight.

but sometimes, the more we fight, the more i LOVE YOU baby. muah *endless kiss.